Black shirt, white sneakers. This is the dress before departure yesterday afternoon. String together with two rubber rings long hair in the back of the head. It was dark. Geological team, a friend, memory is even worse than me, every time I encounter, to ask: Your hair is so dark? Dyed? Many times, I Answer: You asked no less than three times at least, I said I never into the barber shop, remember? She smiled sheepishly. She saw my black hair, suspected to be false. But I never contributed a penny to the barber shop. Many years, and are water noodles. Black hair is natural, not artificial and fake Bansi. Geological team is also an acquaintance, who joked: like me, barber shops have closed! Yes, I met this woman, do not close strange! Mid-Autumn Festival, before playing a very good friend (we participate in the work group) to perm, two hundred and eighty yuan, still cheap. I think that, in addition to curly hair that has not changed much. Worth! If I would not spend this money as it used to make a short trip. Hey, I'm such a woman is not saved! Spend most of the day at the barber shop, by the people playing, remember to stand! Might as well go with the flow of water noodles forget.
has been something of no interest are not natural, even the best, but also through the sculpted, just like writing the same. Polish, hypocritical, empty, are not really good article. Today, women are beauty, youth, trying to make themselves beautiful. Beautiful women to use beauty to keep people like Tang Dynasty, the pursuit of the elixir of life as ridiculous, absurd. History is always repeated. Might seem to be different, and nature is the same. Our geological team is a woman, she would have to grow the United States, fear of years in the face, leaving their traces are interested in beauty year after year, thousands of dollars of cosmetics with nothing to spare, the result of black face paint out of the spots, and have paid to eat traditional Chinese medicine. She went white, also encountered the same trouble. In our geological team, this thing is a lot.
2, the preference for casual wear, for a long time wearing high heels. National Day ago, a few years to wear that dress does not wear blue cloth, to find a pair of sheepskin heels, put on, even the road will not go, practice at home, to go out, or replaced with a pair of The. My feet are not suited to high heels. Although tall and straight people want to wear some people have looked at some U.S., but I suffer. Inappropriate things to decisively give up. Do not let yourself very reluctant to accommodate. As some people had contacts, in fact, is not adapted to each other, then give up. Not meet the high heels of my feet, because I did not like to wear it. In the street, sometimes see some women wear a pair of stilettos, walking, every step is very awkward, not to mention any sense of beauty. I thought: might as well not wear high heels!
old blue calico dress, but I still loved, has been hanging in your closet, could not bear to wear. Wear, or as fit. Who wrote a Said I wanted to surprise and did not want to tell me in advance, but could not help but be said. Later, I had never received a surprise this point. Not forget, or are not sincere. I did not ask this to people willingly. Q, that is sent, not good, that feeling changed.
3, although the old bike, or ride.
ride after the earthquake, the dog days no action about it. When the cold is not the hottest bike, spring and fall, as long as I physically can reach the place, I walk like cycling.
car a few years since, or daughter in fifth grade, her uncle bought three. Daughter was very moved, said to me: uncle so kind to me! They are good for her daughter, has been good. Junior high, I bought her a car. Then her daughter does not ride, I ride, good-looking, but no previous compact cars. Cumbersome. Up to now thrown aside. I have been riding Zheliang and I getting old old vehicles.
4, rode, on the riverbank Cheong, bucking the trend. Always wanted to explore what a good safety Changhe. The purpose of this is: how to look at the river bank where the end?
this fall, has been carefully observed, the changes are made to fall diaries,UGG shoes, make some preparations. An Changhe section, I explore a part of autumn. Sometimes abandoned friends in the party, a good agreement, the temporary presence of something I can not. And friends together to play, I'm secular, but only the substance. When a person travels, is the spirit of me, nothing to do with the material. My friends, I do not know exists in one of two. Together, are all about substance. Relaxed and happy. Geological team as I do not know how many people are doing, and sometimes go home in the compound bumped, some asked me: Did you work ah? I smiled, without any explanation. If you are serious and said to them: No, I'm writing, I'm a writer. I think that is ridiculous. Moreover, I am not a writer. Can not play such a catchy title. To become a real writer, I know good enough. Numerous writers have this false reputation, in fact, that is, there is such a catchy title only. Like me, are not considered qualified.
5, when roaming, it is my time of writing; the time of writing, it is when I wandered lonely.
6, across the road, embankment carrying the car, two middle-aged man looked at me fishing, and I stare at them. Then, the ride vehicle and ran quickly away.
this way, fishing is a lot, especially over the weekend, along the river are the anglers. Men and woman, both young and old, they are used in new fishing rod. Simple rod that long ago disappeared, and I've seen the eighties. I was just working in the field followed by a group of people running Geology. Spare time, we all went to the river fishing. In order to improve the food. Now remember, that water really clean and halal ah, la brawl flowing in the mountains. The two sides are shrubs. Rod is the owner. Without any modification. Standing in the river, a hand holding a fishing rod, bathed in the breeze, waiting for fish bait. Large and small blue stone lying river, was washed clean water, stone Palestinian children to stick in it. There is also a fish is the small yellow wax. The two little fish, meat and more. I play along, to catch do not come. Now, have forgotten the taste of fish, but remember that the river's clear, and there was all the way rushing clatter.
no one then that kind of fishing rod. The same anglers, fishing rod that money or no money.
7, in black Cuijiagou Yan Tang, a young angler, and he told me to do home improvement materials. Geological team knew I was and asked me not so and so who knows? Said that three or four. Of course I know, I have lived downstairs. He and they have worked in the business. Cooperation Debu seems happy that they are not a good deal. He said nothing before playing mahjong, who won Afterwards, whoever treat into the karaoke bars. Paying the money not playing to win, and lose a lot. Now do not play mahjong, and nothing to fish. Fishing better than playing mahjong, the air is good, the body Fine!
everywhere he Jizhemotuo fishing.
said he's not your fishing rod, a pole over three hundred yuan, and the other pole a hundred dollars. Family has seven poles, for the use.
He also said that thousands of your fishing rod, a few thousand there.
I said, to catch a fish, there is no need to use less expensive thing?
He said: What the money!
he hooked two carp, are dumped into the ponds. That sick, gills are red.
little black Yantang before anglers, two years more and more. Owners to sell them for six dollars a pound.
He told me about the dam to the south Pingwu experience as volunteers, is with the Red Cross as a guide to three days. He said the road is difficult to take the car even they do not dare eat the things, the way victims and great, must first meet the children. He honestly told me that when the volunteers is to look for opportunities to live to see. He later brought his own daughter Beichuan Zouliaoyizao, and for many years without contact with a female classmate sent a car to eat. Was removed for a long time, and only then asking the students to.
earthquake, he said, they had just one car is finished goods.
8, I walked along the embankment, has been facing up to ride. Willow in the autumn.
have been a novel idea - The strange thing is fictional in mind some of the things, even in my life come true, as prophecy. Sometimes felt like a witch. This novel is not written, nor the desire to write.
9, willow started off in autumn, and less of life. If it is spring, meandering green river bank, especially in early spring in February. Early spring each year, are looking for time in the embankment walk. Budding of a tree just a tree willows, swaying in the cold, two tender bud, like ducks out of the same nest. This is the most beautiful willow year. All roads Bess, hanging in the sky, the charming scene. I'm usually on the river bank from the Garden District, has come to Parkson, leaving the bank, into the downtown. Some shopping, or to bring her into the Kentucky Fried Chicken Burger, egg tarts, and walked home along the river bank.
see two yellow willow leaves into bud one day day long, day by day the light yellow color becomes green, the spring had passed.
first of spring, in addition to willow, and Begonia. Long flowering crabapple, red, bright. Opening over, end of a long fruit.
walk in March, the bank, the willow for some lush, and willows are covered with green fruit, which results from the catkins in flower and one that lies over the bank is, hazy . Catkins lightly flying, flying, pedestrians also stained clothes Lau Fa.
time I saw a child fall on the bank to grab a flower catkins, he had just held out his hand, catkins were sent a forward section of the wind. The child went with catkins recovery, repeated many times, I do not know was not caught?
10, Willow, like bamboo, just as flexible and charm set in life. You see willow so elegant, soft, very resilient. Wicker baskets, crates, and now see him again. There is no flexibility, is not a basket and the box code. Opened in 1996 in Guiyang, PEN, and Gansu in the car with sinus Yin to Chengdu (we have to transfer in Chengdu), asked his wife to buy a crate. We went shopping together, they did not see the thing. Went to a famous snack of Chengdu Museum, and asked him to eat do not eat snacks? He thought and said do not eat. I was too honest, is a straight man, like to go straight style. We have just eaten lunch, it does not persuade him. Until now regret, that did not invite him to savor Sichuan snack, meaning the landlord does not do. Now, if you have friends come to Sichuan, I would not like that, that is, really do not want to eat, but also his (her) taste of Sichuan specialties. Sichuan so many good things to eat, do not eat will be sorry.
afternoon I returned to Mianyang, and sinus Yin the next day to go. Then I heard the sea's friend said, Dou Yin eat the Dan Dan noodles, to the bowls, the table, how is a small bowl a little bit, he will bowl eight. To the northwest to eat beef noodles, are sea-bowl, a bowl is enough. Sichuan Dou Yin did not think this was actually eat, a delicate bowl, the only fit one or two noodles. Chao Shou, dumplings, glutinous rice balls are true. If you eat bell dumplings, glutinous rice balls Lai, a bowl and had a few. People to the northwest of Sichuan, certainly not used to. Their bowl of beef noodles, real, and a bowl of food and clothing can be resolved, the price is cheap. Yibin my home, eating burning surface is a bowl of one or two. Each time back, the first thing is to eat burning surface, take the time to also eat burning surface, to up-four-two, is four small bowl on the table, as if eating the table. I like to go to people's way of eating noodle Yibin fuel, and some nostalgia. Child to school, the school organization to Cuipingshan to Zhao Man grave, watching movies, I have been burning in this little noodle shop to eat lunch. Junior high, we also see Li and commune a tall pale and acted upon youth to return to the city, the white apron around the stove in the fuel side of fishing noodle noodles. I've seen him and played a few educated youth Home after work and then go burning surface, lo mein is a woman. He has pursued the kind of man, of course, will not stand in the soup, noodles fishing life in the mist.
Later, I went to Lanzhou, Xian Dou asked not to buy crates? He said no.
11, think of the ancient Willow farewell. In fact, their feelings much more simple than we have today. Much more romantic.
especially in the Tang Dynasty, friends bid farewell to friends is to send off a willow. The book says, I always suspected that this explanation is not comprehensive. Tang Dynasty, many people go to the frontier, the mission in the body, leaving not be kept. I think Willow both hands, is whichever is the vitality of willow. Liu vitality so strong, powerful, off on one, inserted into the soil can survive and grow into a tree. Bid farewell to friends, and hope to flee afar, like friends, like willow, no matter where we go, can live as well as Liu.
leave a lot of people say that every year Baqiao side of the willow is refractive.
where we now have ancient simple, romantic? Poetry, Painting? Now the romance and atmosphere are manufactured. Living in the moment, had to miss the first one simple, poetic and natural life.
12, sitting by the river, pond fishing, may be the closest to nature.
13, backpack mineral water, sloshing all the way, given the crisp sound, like a river back in the body.
14, a year back to the Spring Festival Yibin, go to Park River to see the mother's sister, my Erniang. Before leaving, must go side to see the Jinsha River. We went. Second, in the county two years in high school (we read is the two-year),UGG bailey button, most of the time in Berlin over the river, the school her parents lived two lives, the only place where entertainment is the dam. The river was wide open dam, Find a casual sit down a rocky beach, under the eyes is the surging river. The river was clear, Park River man clothes washing bedding sheets are to the river to wash. Not in high school, I also followed Erniang to washed, carrying a bucket, some even carrying the tub. Bow in the river bank, the water flow in the feet, rinse the clothes are also mobile, so the scenes were unforgettable. There are a lot of time sailing and river trackers in the morning to the dam Morning Reading, you can see sailing boats lined up, the white sails, the wind blowing bulging river; more often is a lengthy away on a boat in the river line, the two sides of Castle Peak winding. This mood has passed, it is difficult and then sleep. I was looking at the dam gradually widened and the white sail, looking at the upper reaches of the Jinsha River has been blocked Castle and would like to follow a boat upstream to see cross the Jinsha River is not seen what kind of landscape. I have been to safety by boat side, never came up. One year, a muddy river suddenly. 80 years of the 20th century of a year. Parker River dam people do not go to the laundry, wash water in the home. Occasionally the river running boats while several are motor boats, issued a rumbling sound.
a primitive, natural, poetic Jiang, gone. By industry, replacing the post-industrial civilization.
few minutes to the dam. Not reached until the dam is a memory. See later, not at the memory. Dredge the traces left behind, so that the whole dam rugged sight. Simply do not see a flood the stone, not as uplift the sand hills, is large and deep puddles, and even no place to swing a cat.
brother said: This is what's spectacle!
did nothing spectacle, the memory of the dam does not exist.
planned to construct large fishing profits today, all of China's rivers and lakes are the same outcome. I now walk in the An Changjiang, there Fujiang, not dam the Jinsha River and the Park as fate? I used to visit relatives on the way, the train, it will be able to saw through the window to which the quiet, calm Tuojiang, not several times by chemical pollution, people can only drink water along the pulling vehicle to the water?
for quick success, for endless profits, we still have any moral bottom line?
some people for their own, was able to disregard a river, a lake.
can disregard other people's lives.
melamine milk. When you want the people s money, why they did not the moral bottom line? Chinese urban people have to eat the food almost every day, ah!
15, the past few days, the whole city of people not Ya no water to drink it? Qingyi pollution. The seventies, I Tianquan Lianghekou recuperate, his father's unit sits geological team of two estuaries. I have repeatedly been to follow the geological team of the car Ya, seen a beautiful piece of river. Qingyi, listen to this name, you can imagine her clear, this flow of the river in the mountains, in some people getting rich, luxurious at the same time, can not escape the fate of many rivers. Post-industrial factories, machines, all-pervasive!
father and units of people each year to visit relatives, to be passed by Yaan, their repertoire is elegant to eat fish. Eat, leave. As a collective of major ceremony. In fact, my father will not eat fish. Not to eat do not come, is no way to get a fish bone. Father, now seventy years old, had not yet learned to eat fish. He then and geological teams to participate in that item in a major ceremony Ya, the main soup, saying it was very delicious! Ya heard less and less fish, a heavily polluted, even the people do not drink the river water, but also to Ya live fish swimming in the river it?
16, some of our masters, prophets, has long been on the industry will harm humans were predicted. Rousseau in France, the United States of Thoreau, the United Kingdom Gissing, are made in their writings predicted that about industrial post-industrial destruction of nature. They are also personally, lived a simple, simple life, little land as possible to the natural request. Even on foot. Today, we encounter in a post-industrial times to bring the plight of humanity, despair, in the face again and again suffered heavy trauma of natural, re-read the writings of the prophets of these thinking, awe! What is the master? What is a classic! This is the master, this is classic. They care for the harmony between man and nature is the ultimate man and nature, so that feelings and concerns, in the eighteenth nineteenth century, it has been far beyond our present one.
such as Kafka With the continuous expansion of the post-industrial, with the only material value and profit for the quick success, and later, the trial is no longer human, but natural. One day, it will judge us all human beings, whether you are rich or poor wretch, will accept the nature of the trial.
those ecological and environmental cost of growth, profits, what significance?
17, poor people like me, the greatest ecological and environmental protection.
I do not drive, do not have air conditioning, not laid back in a huge bath tub. The water washing vegetables, and I keep toilet flushing to wash mop. Many times, I was on foot. However, more energy consumption. Modern life more comfortable, convenient, family and all the facilities in public places, in fact been deprived of energy is obtained to the Earth constantly. Enjoy the convenience of modern life, out of the house, we can see the scars of nature. Trauma suffered by the river, we see. Many rivers, more flow no more. They, at this time, my thoughts have not yet fluent.
Jinsha River in the eighties after the turbidity of a year, no matter what the season back home, crossing the river, his water is cloudy.
some rich people are always showing off their wealth. Said not to eat grapes are sour grapes. My poor, less envy such people. I know it is them, is the largest consumer of energy. Money to keep them through the natural request. This is the person who has no moral bottom line, nature is the same. I am poor, like me, awe, just as I thought that some awe as the Prophet. We are poor, not a burden, but a long time, greatly to the social, natural, ecological, environmental and made due contributions. First, we so poor, self-reliant, not a parasite is not a moth. We have basic food and clothing are met, there is no excessive luxury. In addition to the basic needs of life, we will not be obtained from natural too. Contribute to social and human, from the long run, not very rich people. Rather, it is the majority of poor people like me. Some rich people in the short term appears to have made the human contribution to society, but is deprived of natural, ecological and environmental destruction as the price. In particular, some no moral bottom line, after the East West pulled the man to push! 18, a few friends, one of them said how much her how much natural gas a month. Out of the figures, we were shocked at the sitting. I can not help but ask: how do you use? Then not so much how to use ah?
used dishes, she said, without washing liquid, hot water rinse.
the past few years, I also resist the chemical washing liquid, washing pots and pans generally do not use it.
I said to her: I do not have washing liquid, with water against some cold water. If more than greasy, can be washed once more with the opening. Open air driving, as you wash, a waste gas and waste water, not environmentally friendly. You should like me, so you can waste less energy.
she said later, like me, washing dishes, washing is no longer flowing red.
do not know her do not?
19, some people think that they have used up the money, you can live in extravagance, consumption.
hear the most is the unit of some women, talking about the number of how many tons of water used each month, is a proud. As if to say to the people: I can afford! I have money! Used more, I'm not afraid! Proud to hear their tone of disdain, but also for their shame.
you have the money like? Do you have money can not buy a perennial river flowing ha!
look no further use of the cool water was drained, I am very distressed.
like a grudge like a ghost I do not casually waste water, although I do not care about water.
20, of course, if the poor have no awareness of environmental protection, pollution of the surrounding environment easily, but also sin, but also ecological, environmental saboteurs.
21, first floor, the woman who called Yuan Shuqin, unlike other women, like love mahjong playing, dancing. Her love life is like gardening, knitting, doing housework. A woman will live. We moved in together sixteen have seven or eight years, her home, planted flower bed in front of a lot of flowers, my name is drawn, there rose, rose, peony, smiling, gardenia, bloom, etc., also planted the tree Huang Jue Lan. Today, Huang Jue Lan almost up to my fifth floor, the year after flowering. Through it, an fragrance nostrils. Tempted to shout a few words: a good fragrant incense ah ah! Unfortunately, flower bed big enough for displaying her hobby. And she, also anxious to put all the world's plants are more into the piece of less than three square meters of flower bed, too crowded too close, some flowers will not bloom. Huang Jue Lan grew larger in particular, many flowers can only sacrifice himself. She went, to display their love pot. Front and rear balconies filled with flowers, flower bed in front of the grass around the fence and also filled with flowers. Ai Ai, the flower of a woman, she is an ordinary woman. But her life had also wonderful, very impressive.
under her balcony a large ceramic urn, and kept the water lily. Summer, the water lily blossom quietly, as quietly had a dream season.
22, different people have different lives, had a different method.
and I over the years, through the writing life.
units of a woman, part of the mahjong-loving, part love dancing. Also each have their own circle dance, each have their own partners. Are the new dance. What point step, cowboy step, four-step recovery, Kaka ... ... these women, into the dance floor, like a duck, and all of a jump into the devil figure. The kind of ecstasy and freedom, not pressure at the time of my writing ecstasy and freedom. My two friends, also lovers in this area, and sometimes I follow them, slowly learning. But very often, they are about me, I did not go. A friend said: you walk is also the events and dances are also activities, not as dance. I said: ah yes ah. She does not know, I do not just walk to walk, I walk is also writing and thinking. I know them, sure there are some not the same. I, a woman living a life of writing thing. But I never explain to them what.
I leave myself alone, thrown himself alone, is to better writing.
a writing woman, a woman would like to write good works, God will be gas free, to let his soul to hell in the sink, sink into the dark depths. This way, you have to be considered is a real person writing.
never see some like to fish for a catchy title, but also people who like to get together and write what decent literature.
into darkness deep and enjoy the spirit of peace and happiness.
This is a writer's life.
Therefore, the unit's friend, how do not understand why I like to walk alone, walk.
they feel: very boring! Very boring!
we play together more fun and more fun ah!
they are not writing the woman.
I said: I try to dance with you once a week.
them to laugh, incomprehensible laugh.
left alone and all right,UGG boots clearance, why do not play with them?
they do not know I was very hard, hard to learn to dance, hard day,UGGs, to jump into the devil himself, wrinkled little old lady.
23, the night of Chiang blue Jiang Lan Calvino creatively a story follows the title of Baron compared the sparrow. Calvino's book, I read several, Why do we writers in China, there is no such imagination? To write such a work is purely fictional and profound meaning? Reading this novel, I was shocked, and wanted to write an essay reading. But to take a long time to write, write fully mature thinking. I read essays, the book is finished, over a long time to write. Chiang thinking blue this essay and gave me inspiration. Yes ah yes ah, in the trees over a lifetime Baron degree, not his life like a bird life? We humans, if they can live like a bird, which is more than good!
24, I remember reading this novel, I was standing downstairs in the window to see the forest. They are under in my eyes, is a retired female cadres duty units planted. Just moved into this building, those trees are still relatively small, the people in the woods below the building to do anything in the kitchen and see clearly. In recent years, this forest full of trees, and to cover cover the floor outside the building, but also a lot higher. In two or three years, may have to come up to my fifth floor of the house. Camphor up, grow up, throughout the year, a number of birds standing on the camphor tree, melody singing. Swallow, Pulsatilla and so on. Swallows winter to fly away, Pulsatilla is a frequent visitor to the tree. When they are standing trees, really like a gentleman, calmly and leisurely. Like a hermit.
Pulsatilla quiet tree looked, I was thinking when Baron run in the forest, how to not fall down? The tree from his day until death, no next-off. I looked at the tree and the distance between trees, it is quite wide. Birds can fly from tree to that tree, unique to only use his legs across the Baron. Although he practiced out of an ability to survive in the trees, or very easy. But he did finally fade away like a bird in the distance.
25, live in trees like a bird, which is what kind of life?
their lives, needs very little, not greedy!
stood fifth floor, I can only look up the tree Baron! (Continued)
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